I want I want I WANT!

.....New art for my walls. I'm in love with Threadless and want to get my own computer fixed so I can start doing more with them.... but until then, I really really wish I could use like a hundred of the prints they currently have up to plaster all over my ugly walls :)

http://artistshoppe.threadless.com/product/48370/prints?cl=7
http://artistshoppe.threadless.com/product/33308/prints?cl=7
http://artistshoppe.threadless.com/product/44861/prints?cl=7
http://artistshoppe.threadless.com/product/40297/prints?cl=7
http://artistshoppe.threadless.com/product/24070/prints?cl=7
http://artistshoppe.threadless.com/product/43774/prints?cl=7
http://artistshoppe.threadless.com/product/54071/prints?cl=7
http://artistshoppe.threadless.com/product/44006/prints?cl=7
http://artistshoppe.threadless.com/product/44087/prints?cl=7
http://artistshoppe.threadless.com/product/40050/prints?cl=7
http://artistshoppe.threadless.com/product/44511/prints?cl=7
http://artistshoppe.threadless.com/product/43280/prints?cl=7
http://artistshoppe.threadless.com/product/42349/prints?cl=7
http://artistshoppe.threadless.com/product/54981/prints?cl=7
http://artistshoppe.threadless.com/product/58690/prints?cl=7

Dumps...down down in 'em

So, I've been dumped before but this situation I'm in is just retarded. Talk about double standards at every turn. I don't get it. And I really liked him. I mean we had planned on moving to a bigger apartment where my dog could live with us. Grr. And mostly I would just like to see my friends again. The ones that I quit spending time with because HE would get jealous. And the ones that I ditched because we had mutual friend with the previous ex that were major jerks to me after THAT messy break up.

I would just like for the crap, one thing right on top of the next, to stop piling up on me. I am no super human. I can make it through yes, but I would just like to enjoy myself and not have all this mounting stress. I'm beginning to think Anna Nicole had the right idea marrying a rich old man. Any takers? I'm young. I'm not so much on the dumb blonde side though. And I'd sorta rather not have step kids older than me. Oh and I don't want to live in Indiana anymore so I would be willing to go to like Chicago, but only if you're cool with being a White Sox fan :)

Getting it.

I guess I'm slow. But for whatever reason I am determined to figure this thing out. It's so sad that I could get into an engineering school and yet I am STILL so computer illiterate.

I work in the mall and this man mall walks here. It's kind of cool because he likes to tell me about his art work. He actually has a painting hanging in the school I got into on a fluke. Every time I see him it makes me want to go home and paint. Inevitably that never happens. I have been seriously neglecting my art work. I'm very particular about the situations in which I will work. I need to get over it because creativity can only help me at this point.

One of these days I'll get on it. And maybe I'll even post some of my newer work.
Thanks Peter, even if it's not in the near future, you will get me working again. For some reason I just know it will happen with your incouragement.

Following Suit

In the spirit of my dear Saddles, I need a vent. So I too shall blog. It's an interesting idea considering I was never much on keeping a journal or diary.



This is going to be slow going. I'm stuck in a moment where I've lost site of what makes ME. I can't paint. I can't draw. I can't read. I can't sleep half the time. I miss people. Places. Moments. Not to say that I'm in a slump. I have a very sweet, although odd, boyfriend. I got home from work last night and he had cleaned our apartment. And he was even getting along with the cat. THE cat. Not our cat, or my cat. I don't even feel any attachment to this pet I care for daily. I think I will have to find him a new home soon. It's just not fair to him.
I do have a new dog though. He doesn't get to stay with me yet. We have to move to a dog friendly apartment first. He loves my boyfriend. And when they are together he couldn't care less for me. Which is really saying something as my dog is agressive toward most men. He is getting better though. He was abused, but he is still pretty much a puppy so he has time to grow out of it. And if I could ever save enough money to pay my car off and get it in my name then I would have the money to get him fixed and spoil him like he deserves.
I'm pretty sure I'm going to call it quits at that today. Everything else just seems too irritating and stressful to get into at the moment. The more I put down the better I feel about this though.....
Dear computer, thanks for listening.